Tuesday, December 6, 2016

An Artist's Reflection

When I look back on my 30 day challenge, writing a blog about it, making a digital story, and now finishing this “ePortfolio”, I have decidedly mixed feelings. When I was told that my 30 day challenge had to have a positive effect on my life it became apparent what I should do for it, quit smoking cigarettes. It was easily the best decision I made the entire semester. Completing the 30 day challenge in itself was unchallenging for me, to say the least. What seemed to be difficult was writing the blog entries about my challenge. I had little to talk about. There did not seem to be much to tell other than that I stopped buy and smoking cigarettes. I had to think of other topics to talk about that I could somehow relate to quitting smoking. I talked about going on hikes, taking my brother’s dog for a walk, and how my emotions sometimes got the best of me while driving. All of those are things that replaced my nicotine habit.
Creating my digital story was the most demanding assignment I was given this semester. I have plenty of stories that I know I could have told well. Each with enough pictures for any of them to have made an amazing story, yet I had to somehow make it about my 30 day challenge. This, coupled with the fact that I am technologically illiterate, made the project difficult for me. I finally decided that I could tell the story of the first time I saw combat action, while deployed to Afghanistan, which was the reason that I started smoking in the first place. From here I started  the task a little differently than most. I put together my video without having completed my narration for it. I had an idea of what I wanted to do and where I wanted it end up but no plans on how to get there. After playing around with the WeVideo program for a few hours I had finally put together a semi-coherent stream of pictures that almost told a story. This is where is got interesting for me. I watched the video I had made two or three times to figure out the timing of the pictures and the black screens. I then played the video and recorded my narration off of the top of my head. Doing so took me six or seven tries to get just right. This meant that each time I recorded myself the story I told was slightly different. The finished product turned out to be better than I had originally expected it to be.
If I had the chance to go back and do the 30 day challenge over again I know I would have done it a little differently. I still would have chosen to quit smoking, which was something that I had been wanting to do for a long time, and I’m happy that I completed that goal. I think I would have written the blog in a different way, though, maybe adding more information about health and quitting smoking techniques. Overall I enjoyed this English class. It had been ten years since the last time I had taken any formal classes and I feel like I did well with my writing although I know that I could have put a little more time and effort into it. During the last semester I learned that I am able to write better than I had previously thought and I actually enjoy writing. I could see myself becoming an author of sorts, but only if there was money in doing so.

Artist's Statement (Digital Story)

An Artist’s Statement
I chose to create my digital story based around an event in my life that led to me start using tobacco, something that is no longer a part of my life thanks to my 30 day challenge. I knew going into my 30 day challenge, which was to quit smoking cigarettes, that it was a task that I could accomplish easily if I actually wanted to accomplish it. It was a complete success. It has been two months and one week without tobacco or nicotine. The hardest part came when I was informed that the digital story had to be about my 30 day challenge. It just so happened that me quitting tobacco was not interesting enough to make a digital story about. I had to think hard about a story I could tell the world that was interesting, tied into my 30 day challenge, and caught the audience's attention.
I centered my digital story around my time deployed to Afghanistan while serving in the U.S. Army Infantry. I started the digital story with a title screen with the date of the emotionally traumatic event I witnessed. I immediately started to show pictures of all of the mountains that I was surrounded by. Six different pictures that I took while overseas. I followed that up with a four to five second black screen for dramatic effect. Then I chose to show six pictures of the main highway in Afghanistan, a road that I spent a large amount of time driving on. I also inserted a black screen for five seconds following those pictures. Next I had six pictures showing the kinds of activities and shenanigans that happened inside the truck I drove. This was again followed by a long, pausing black screen. I chose to show these pictures following them with the black screens to slow down the tempo of my story and create a very serious tone. All the while that this was being shown I was narrating what the pictures showed and the memories and feelings they brought to my mind.
I then presented photographs of the men I was deployed with, the men I spent ten months living with in extremely close quarters, that I have come to call my family.  I wanted to show the entire platoon to the audience. I then displayed individual pictures of the guys I became closest with while we were in a combat zone together. The next part was a 15 second long black screen where I used long pauses in between the sentences I was narrating to create a sense of tension. This was all leading up to the big “reveal” of my story. The main focal point picture. The picture of a destroyed MRAP (Mine-Resistant, Ambush-Protected) vehicle. The very same MRAP that I witnessed fly 17 feet into the air. This all made for an interesting and gripping story. The only problem is that up until this point the digital story had yet to have anything to do with my 30 day challenge.
Finally I showed three pictures of myself using tobacco while in Afghanistan. This was where I could finally tie the entire story back into my 30 day challenge. I continue on to explain that my life changed after witnessing such a horrific incident. I began smoking and using chewing tobacco heavily to help calm my nerves and try to maintain focus while on combat patrols. The 30 day challenge that I chose was something that I had been wanting to do for a long time but always came up with stupid excuses to tell myself while I continued to smoke. Quitting cold turkey was probably the best decision to make while doing this challenge because it gave me the chance to prove to myself that I can do anything I want to as long as I have the mental strength and willpower to do so.